The band means lots to some folks though, and I've done 200 interviews trying to explain myself clearly...and at the end of a 5 minute explanation, the next question is usually: 'So when can we expect a reunion?'
So I have come to the conclusion that I will just keep explaining it...as I realize the impact that a good band can have on people. It's incredibly tiring, but hey, you make your bed you know?
I suspect that I will be asked hundreds of times if Gene will be on deconstruction, and I will calmly explain that I believe syl was an amazing band, and it's emotional impact is largely based on the honesty that was reflected during a period of my life (20's, early 30's) where those themes were important. Also, that as a musical form based on catharsis, it was a very important musical step for me to get to where I want to be. To 'resolve' those issues. Also, to continue with a band that is no longer being done for the sake of the muse that made it important in the first place discredits everything that made it unique.
Also, my future includes lots of heavy heavy music and I wrote more than 90% of syl, including production etc...so there's a good chance that people will get what they want, it will be a little different, but I cannot reconnect with the emotions of a 25 year old, to me...folks who willingly repress themselves are no longer interesting to me as I mature, so again...the honesty that made syl relevant is the same energy that makes the dtp relevant.
Playing with the syl guys at this point makes no sense to me when I'm trying to prove this point. As interesting as it would be to some people, but I would hazzard to guess it's interesting because they would assume it would lead to a reunion of a band that defined a certain period of their life that is romanticized.
I talk to Byron, Jed, and Gene. Yes, they talked some shit about me...absolutely, but they were hurt. They did not understand. But we talked as recently as last week, and even Byron said to me 'You are my friend, if doing this music and being in this band was emotionally damaging, fuck the band, I love you' ...which is why we will be friends forever. Yes, it was hard on everybody, we were just getting going. It's hard on the fans, and believe it or not, it was hard on me.
So I figure Deconstruction is neccesary to purge this, as well as lyrically discuss what I have just mentioned in this mail.
I'm sure that for the rest of this deconstruction thread, there will be dozens of mails that ask if Gene is involved, if syl is getting back together, fuck the mellow stuff, 'I love me some chaos' ...the heavier the better etc. And I truly don't mind, it makes sense to me as well. There's going to come a time though where I just stop answering the questions.
There's lots to the artistic process that makes it seem on the outside like it would be and should be the obvious choice. And again, calmly...it is not. SYL would have destroyed me if I let it, and I'm afraid it's as simple as that. And yes, there are people who were absolutely fine with that as long as they get what they want, and thats inevitable as well. However, being a martyr for other people reeks of religion, cultism and selfishness.
SYL was an amazing band, I love the guys, I'm proud of what we did, and I will be talking about it and answering the same questions for the rest of my career, ultimately...I guess that will decide how long the career lasts. I'm still on the fence as to weather the music world will welcome me as anything but that character...it was a great charcter. And if it doesn't, I'm cool with that as well.
So to the syl fans, I love you, I love syl, deconstruction is for you....(and me).