Now.... This is another interestign one. I see this as one of the more personal songs on Infinity, and despite it's frothing-at-the-mouth-with-glee sound, I feel it is actually a very dark song. I have to admit, it is the song on Infinity that I get over the quickest, but it also a very deep tune and I guess I see a lot of Dev's personality in this one, and also it reminds me of others I know who suffer from similar problems to what Devin goes through.
It seems to me that the Bad Devil being referenced is the split personality that lurks inside our minds, the personality that most of us thankfully only have to deal with in small doses, to the point where we may not really be aware that we are undergoing personality change when we act under the influence.... Some people, be they schitzophrenic, bipolar, whatever, seem to be caught a fair bit harder in the grasp of personality conflict.
I don't know that this is true, so I will merely bring up the topic as a maybe, but I have heard that Devin is bipolar... This would mean that there are two (or more) distinct personalities that come into play at various stages, mostly beyond the control of the person whom they inhabit. I am best friends with a bipolar person, and my fucking God........... it is not an easy thing to reconcile with. Sometimes it feels like you're with a completely different person.
Devin has admitted to battling many demons while making this album (which probably adds to it's greatness) and has mentioned several times his "Christ complex" that was taking him over at this point. This song seems to me to be the most curt musical explaination of the situation that he has thus delivered, describing his inner demons as a literal devil, telling him what to do and pushing him around like a child.
The verses seem to be various sketches at what the "Devil" says to him, be they metaphorical or otherwise. From the level of insanity Dev suggests that his persona took on at this point, I don't think that any one of us will ever be able to accurately state what lyrical content was derived from literal conversations with his personalities, but I would suggest that the lyrics are predominantly metaphorical and given to suggest the general feel of what was going down.
For example - I don't know, but - I wouldn't think that devin's demons would literally ask what he had for dinner. But I think perhaps he put that in to imply the level of intimacy the demons demanded of him, prying into his personal life and demanding that he answer to them. The mention of the rodeo perhaps is a metaphorically driven image, putting across the idea perhaps of attempting to ride the demons to whatever mental state they may lead to, or perhaps trying to ride them "home" and be free of them.
"We'll see how you feel when you're older
We'll see how you feel when it's over
Cause it's all just a waste of time
So enjoy what's on my mind"
Perhaps the words of a parent or mentor suggesting that early signs of the split personalities manifesting would be only a passing phase? Perhaps the words of the "devil" suggesting that it would only hang around for a short while... Perhaps an invitation from the devil to delve deeper into the depravity of it's being and explore the dark undercurrent of it's mind.... perhaps an invitation from Devin for us to do the same, to use this album as a springboard to explore the deepest thoughts that perhaps we would be afraid to go to on our own.
"Train won't stop, it's never gonna stop
And it's coming back to carry me back home
Leave me alone with nowhere to go
And I'll ride that wind back out"
This seems to be the onslaught of the bipolarity taking it's toll, with Devin giving in to the thought that the depression/personality split may never end, and that it (in the metaphor of a train) would carry him indefinitely onwards. Is the "leave me alone..." part asking for privacy to deal with the demons alone? Or is it a defiant gesture to the demons to strand him where they will and know that he will get himself out of the labrynth?
"And I've seen how I feel when I'm older
And I've seen how I feel when it's over
And it's not just a waste of time
So enjoy what's on my mind"
This strikes me as a definite defiant resolve against the inner demons. Devin had grown up with the problems and had lived through turbulent times and was aware that he was able to still do things of greatness despite being hampered by personal trauma. He had discovered that despite whatever those demons told him, his personal concerns were not just a waste of time, and that he had visions that he would cause to unfold, demons or no.
I feel that the last "enjoy what's on my mind" in that verse is a definite invitation extended to us, as listeners, to delve deeper into his psyche. Notice that after this song, the album starts to go to very deep territory, territory that most of us probably have never experienced within our own minds. Devin knows that what eh has created is glorious, and he knows that we mere humans will be awed by this insanely brilliant work....
Devin seems to have gotten through his Infinity era demons, saying recently that he has absolved the "Christ complex".... leaving him unable to be in the headspace of Infinity ever again (this was his reason for being unable to complete the remix of Infinity in the manner of the original vision) and I think that this is very much a good thing. I would personally much rather Devin be a happy man living a happy life than struggle with whatever demons caused him to create Infinity, as amazing as it is... We know that untroubled he can still create masterworks, and Hell, there can only be one Infinity.....
It seems to me that the Bad Devil being referenced is the split personality that lurks inside our minds, the personality that most of us thankfully only have to deal with in small doses, to the point where we may not really be aware that we are undergoing personality change when we act under the influence.... Some people, be they schitzophrenic, bipolar, whatever, seem to be caught a fair bit harder in the grasp of personality conflict.
I don't know that this is true, so I will merely bring up the topic as a maybe, but I have heard that Devin is bipolar... This would mean that there are two (or more) distinct personalities that come into play at various stages, mostly beyond the control of the person whom they inhabit. I am best friends with a bipolar person, and my fucking God........... it is not an easy thing to reconcile with. Sometimes it feels like you're with a completely different person.
Devin has admitted to battling many demons while making this album (which probably adds to it's greatness) and has mentioned several times his "Christ complex" that was taking him over at this point. This song seems to me to be the most curt musical explaination of the situation that he has thus delivered, describing his inner demons as a literal devil, telling him what to do and pushing him around like a child.
The verses seem to be various sketches at what the "Devil" says to him, be they metaphorical or otherwise. From the level of insanity Dev suggests that his persona took on at this point, I don't think that any one of us will ever be able to accurately state what lyrical content was derived from literal conversations with his personalities, but I would suggest that the lyrics are predominantly metaphorical and given to suggest the general feel of what was going down.
For example - I don't know, but - I wouldn't think that devin's demons would literally ask what he had for dinner. But I think perhaps he put that in to imply the level of intimacy the demons demanded of him, prying into his personal life and demanding that he answer to them. The mention of the rodeo perhaps is a metaphorically driven image, putting across the idea perhaps of attempting to ride the demons to whatever mental state they may lead to, or perhaps trying to ride them "home" and be free of them.
"We'll see how you feel when you're older
We'll see how you feel when it's over
Cause it's all just a waste of time
So enjoy what's on my mind"
Perhaps the words of a parent or mentor suggesting that early signs of the split personalities manifesting would be only a passing phase? Perhaps the words of the "devil" suggesting that it would only hang around for a short while... Perhaps an invitation from the devil to delve deeper into the depravity of it's being and explore the dark undercurrent of it's mind.... perhaps an invitation from Devin for us to do the same, to use this album as a springboard to explore the deepest thoughts that perhaps we would be afraid to go to on our own.
"Train won't stop, it's never gonna stop
And it's coming back to carry me back home
Leave me alone with nowhere to go
And I'll ride that wind back out"
This seems to be the onslaught of the bipolarity taking it's toll, with Devin giving in to the thought that the depression/personality split may never end, and that it (in the metaphor of a train) would carry him indefinitely onwards. Is the "leave me alone..." part asking for privacy to deal with the demons alone? Or is it a defiant gesture to the demons to strand him where they will and know that he will get himself out of the labrynth?
"And I've seen how I feel when I'm older
And I've seen how I feel when it's over
And it's not just a waste of time
So enjoy what's on my mind"
This strikes me as a definite defiant resolve against the inner demons. Devin had grown up with the problems and had lived through turbulent times and was aware that he was able to still do things of greatness despite being hampered by personal trauma. He had discovered that despite whatever those demons told him, his personal concerns were not just a waste of time, and that he had visions that he would cause to unfold, demons or no.
I feel that the last "enjoy what's on my mind" in that verse is a definite invitation extended to us, as listeners, to delve deeper into his psyche. Notice that after this song, the album starts to go to very deep territory, territory that most of us probably have never experienced within our own minds. Devin knows that what eh has created is glorious, and he knows that we mere humans will be awed by this insanely brilliant work....
Devin seems to have gotten through his Infinity era demons, saying recently that he has absolved the "Christ complex".... leaving him unable to be in the headspace of Infinity ever again (this was his reason for being unable to complete the remix of Infinity in the manner of the original vision) and I think that this is very much a good thing. I would personally much rather Devin be a happy man living a happy life than struggle with whatever demons caused him to create Infinity, as amazing as it is... We know that untroubled he can still create masterworks, and Hell, there can only be one Infinity.....
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